- The importance of sex.
Sex has lost all it’s meaning over the past few years. I bet that in the past sex was all about making love to the one person you’re going to spend the REST of your life with. It was about waiting until you were married to have sex because you knew that you wanted to wait for the person who made you happy & who you can see yourself with.
Now what does sex mean ? Honestly , sex has no meaning anymore. You look at people & ask them how many people they have sex with & some may say 1 or a bit more but there are others that say 10+. What is that about ? Sex shouldn’t just be about sleeping with someone just because you wanna feel good. It should be about feeling good because of the moment you’re sharing with someone.
Sex should make you feel great because you’re it with someone you plan to be with for the rest of your life. It should be something special. Ever since I had sex with one guy last year I have lost everything.
Once you have sex you lose yourself in a way. I regret what I did sometimes. It was with someone I could have seen myself with but in the end it didn’t work out that way. It meant a LOT to me when it happened because I had so much love for the person I was with. When he left me & turned into someone he wasn’t , it changed everything.
Sex changes who you are. The guy I did it with was never interested in sex. He was never about it. Never talked about it & just didn’t care for it.
As soon as we did it , he changed. He became a lot more interested in it & in the end wanted more. I didn’t mind because we were in a relationship but after we broke up it changed. My feelings were COMPLETELY hurt & I wasn’t myself anymore.
As soon as he broke up with me I was hurt. I was completely torn. In the end he would text me & act like everything was fine between us. I never told anyone but the day after we broke up he came over & we would continue to do things the old way. The kissing , the ‘I love you’ , the sleeping together. NOTHING changed with me. I continued to love him. Continued to get my hopes up. Always said ‘we will be together again’.
Sex really does make you attached to the person you do it with for the first time. Now I realize why people say be careful who you do it with. Now I know why they say that you should wait until you’re going to get married. Breaking up with my first & only guy I’ve slept with to this day , hurt so much that I didn’t care that he was using me in the end. I let him come back to me whenever he wanted because I always though that maybe if I kept giving him what he wanted he would come back. He didn’t.
Today I love a guy who I can see myself spending most if not all of my life with. I would hope one day I can let go of the fear of losing him & love him without feeling the need to be careful.
What does that have to do with it ? Well. I hope one day I can share the moment with him. I would love for it to happen. Only thing is , I’m scared the same thing will happen again.
I don’t want to do something I will regret in the end again. I want the both of us to be doing it for the right reasons , not just because of the hormones.
I know I’m only 18 but my heart is so much more mature than that. I’m ready for a more SERIOUS relationship. I want a relationship that I can see a SERIOUS commitment coming out of it. I don’t want a high school relationship where it’s all fun & games until someone gets hurt. I want the ‘I wanna spend the rest of my life & I mean it’ kind of relationship.
Don’t have sex unless you’re COMPLETELY in love & most definitely wait.